Every January 1st many make new year resolutions in what they want to achieve, what they want to become, and what they want to attain. I mean who can resist. When else in the year do you feel like you can start clean? I also made a similar list on January 1st. It was pretty generic
1) Be more healthy 2)Workout more 3) Maintain good communication with mom and dad 4) Be more organized 5) Get a 4.0 this semester 6) Start a new blog (hehe..at least this i have made a dent in)
Well, yesterday I was sifting through some old books and I came across Maria Shiver’s book Just Who Will You Be. It was pretty short so I decided to read it and it got me thinking….
The book is about Maria’s dilemma which starts with writing a highschool graduation speech where she can not think of how to introduce herself..Is she Arnold’s wife? or one of the Kennedy’s? or a famous TV anchor? A mother? A jouranlist What am I? She asks this question to herself over and over? But discovers the more important question is “Who am I and who do I want to become?”
Even as a child, everyone asks: Who do you want to be when you grow up?
But, maybe WHO we are is not only more important but will also help define what we are. So..I went back to my old resolutions REDO..
1)Kind-hearted- how? Thinking more before I speak or take action, knowing that what I say or do can cause detriment to others..This past year I had got so caught up in what others thought of me, what they did, and what they said. I allowed this mentality to determine many things I did..and many of them I am not proud of. I had once read that ” what someone thinks of you is not your business”. This couldn’t be more true! Now that I look back, I said things and did things that I would have never done had I thought about it a second time. I became a very judgemental person. I guess this what second chances are about…
2) Caring - I never did not care about the people who were close to me. But, I am not a person to show it. I love them deeply but, I do not call them or email them or anything of the sort. I used to think that as long as you care for someone it is not important that you show it. But during finals week, a good friend emailed me wishing me luck and she was missing and thinking about me. It was probably only four sentences long but to know that she took the time to email me meant so much to me. I will make it a point to keep in contact with relatives and friends and most importantly my parents.
3) Diligent -If I had to define this point in my life I would definetly say “half-assed”. But only figuretively..HAHAHA..Whether it is with schoolwork, a relationship,or even cleaning my room, I do just enough to get by. But lately my half-assing is becoming costly and it has caused me to lose much. And ENOUGH is ENOUGH!! I am done with it! I want to be persistant and attentive in everything I do.
So will I live up to these hefty resolutions? I hope so. I need to. Only time will tell.
Follow me as I become the person who I want to be…
